The New Chapter of My Life

I have always found it hard to open up new chapters in my life. I like to keep the old things old, and never embrace the new things. My friend Rachel helped me realize that it is o.k. to end those chapters. I guess sometimes you can't change what someone has become. I don't see why I still want it to work. Yeah, Yeah I am talking about a guy. One that I used to think was the guy for me. I know now that I am just living in a fantasy world, and that fairytale is never going to happen. I've been in college for about 2 months now, and I haven't found One Single Guy that I like. I can't exactly say I have been trying my hardest. I guess I just don't trust them like I used to. I have no clue how guys in Florida are like... part of me just doesn't want to figure it out. I'm scared. I keep making the excuse that I am here for college, not boys. I also don't want to end alone with 50 catfish. I want that happy ending, that happy marriage. Children for that matter. All I know is to spread my wings and let down my guard. I have faith it will happen. I am ready to end that ugly chapter in my life. :) Thanks Rachel.